Mysterious Song

While im talking to a "girl" friend she mentioned the Gloomy Sunday song, I never heard of it and she said its a cursed song and I became interested. A cursed Song for real? yun ang naisip ko. But I dont know the effect of the song kaya before you proceed dapat sigurado ka na nagtataglay ka ng malakas na pag iisip at kaya mo absorb kung ano man ang nakasulat sa lyrics ng kantang to..


Im above 18 years old at nasa katinuan akong pagiisp kayang kaya ko absorb kung ano man ang mababasa ko o kahit pakingan ko ang kantang to ay walang mangyayari sa akin wala akong gaanong problema sa buhay at di ako sawi sa pag-ibig. Walang pananagutan ang nagsulat nito sa kung ano man ang mangyari sa akin o kung ano man ang naging epekto nito sa aking pamumuhay.


Hindi ako sumasang ayon, nabasted ako o iniwan ako ng boyfriend ko at malaki ang problema ko sa buhay di ko kaya absorb yan ito na lang ang titignan ko para maaliw ako...

Oo sumasang ayon ako at di ako sawi sa pagibig at wala akong problema sa buhay kayang kaya ko absorb yan...

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Coincidence?

The whole day im with the girl I love. I woke up 6 am to pick her up in Cubao but I came there at 10 am coz hirap sumakay hahaha dami tao sa kalsada parang fiesta! funny thing is yung girl na may gusto sa akin pumunta sa place namin, ewan ko dun ang lakas ng loob I already told her that im with "her" pero pumunta pa rin! tama ba yun! I talked to her and she said so many things na unbelievable.. parang ako interviewer and sya nag aaply ng work she keep on describing herself and how she love a person, how she treat her special someone and so many things until umabot sa adult story errr... im just listening to her and im not that kind of guy na papatol na lang coz im heart broken. before she went home she want to kiss me! but di pwede conservative ako e hahahaha!

Where does the broken piece go?

Its really hard to accept what the truth can bring you, have you ever felt that all the answer to your question simultaneously revealed and you cant handle it that your head will spin and you will just fall down and start to cry? I did and I can't comprehend whats happening now into my life. I lose the girl I love and I dont know what I will do cause she's everything for me, I know that the pain will last for weeks or months but Im not really sure if it will really just fade away like that. The feeling that she like other guy that she do things for him to be with him makes it harder for me, how I wish that there's a medicine that can make me forget everything I've been through the past 2 years. I really love this girl and I will do everything to win her back but now I don't have strenght to do it. Everything I know about her starts to crumble and replaced by other image, the other self of her. The question, the lies and the answers even the things I dont know in the past become clear to me. The people, the person there's always a relevance and the things that came into my mind that I refuse to believe is true. The jealousy, the pain and the uneasy feeling in past is what I really should feel when I feel that cause it is something she do that she dont want me to know. All the love, loyalty was nothing and it will not even help me solve things now that make me think I just wasted my time and effort but it is not. She made me happy, inspire me and make me do things I thought I can never do, she's the one who gave me strenght and continue to dream. But, now she's gone. How can I continue? I will start picking the pieces that she broke but how about the other piece? I believe its with her with her new guy? then how can I redeem myself?

Changes

If we try to remember what we are before, the days when you were a high school student the time you first felt you like someone and the awkward things you do for him or her to notice you. Now try to think of the present you, a lot of things had change right? now you wish you were the same as your oldself before but there are also lot of things you want to forget. Your a jolly guy before but now you rarely smile, You dont care if a girl gets near you but now if you see big boobs your eye swell and feel horny. The things we been through, things we experience everyday mold us to become other person they forcefully change us and by the time you notice it its too late to turn back and sometimes we fail to recognize it that its already taking place. Now think what you can do to make yourself feel better and accept the changes in your life good or bad.