Overload

Over whelming feeling

*The scene*
While he's in the Operations Meeting. The Chairman of the board saw him. He points at him and said.
Chairman: Come here for a minute.
The chairman went outside the office and He followed up to the elevator door until the chairman halted and whispered to him.
Chairman: How much do we pay you?
Guy: I don't know exactly but I think its *@$~@!.
Chairman: Okay. Tell **** to raise your salary by *@$~!
Guy: Oh!. Thank you.
Then he went back to the office with a happy face, overwhelmed and can't believe what just happened. For him it's like a dream personally raised by the owner.

This words suddenly pop up in his mind "If you wait, endure and your quiet while you do your best. You will get what you deserve"

He believes in the Chairman. "Tough times don't last but tough people do"

Lamb - Do you believe in lamination?

I was looking for a good Wallpaper for my PS3 system. I was browsing the PSN for good High def wallpaper cause I got tired of Fallout 3 theme. I came across 1 red Wallpaper titled Lamb. It was the newest Anime for animax and one of the first High Def Anime for TV.

I don't know if I was the only one who don't know about this (I'm too busy with my life working and my gf ^_^). Yesterday, I change my laptop theme to everything red, downloaded the Red Theme for mozilla and Red theme for vista and it looks cool! I tried to find the best wallpaper that will suit the red theme and I remember that the Lamb Wallpaper on my ps3 has red background and the Protagonist girl wear a Red Suit. I thought that it fits perfectly and I tried to browse and look for HD wallpaper for laptop but what I found out is that Lamb is actually base on the story created by Filipino named Carmelo Juinio! I was like oh! I never thought!

The anime is set on a harsh desert planet where everything is recycled even human criminal, they get laminated and turned into a cyborg like human. Once laminated they can be use as slave who obeys everything(those who disobey gets electrocuted) and they can also live for hundred years until released. No torrent yet to be found.. I hope some one seed it lol hehe.

After all bitter taste

I was thinking... after all the things that I've went through, I realized that I'm still lucky and blessed. I can even put them in chapters but no. :P.

I am still struggling to have a perfect life, but I know that I'm not even close to it but having the best person at your side was the best thing I have and that will keep me going and it made me feel that I'm ready for everything. I just can't wipe that silly smile I have right now. I'm just being happy.

Reality Fantasy

I bought PlayStation 3 last December with my loving girlfriend and played several games like Silent Hill Homecoming, Ninja Gaiden Sigma, Fallout 3 and Metal Gear Solid 4 the best game I played ever on any console game, full of emotion if your an MGS fan since PS1. Gaming is in my blood and I think It cannot be removed in my system anymore. I remember the time when me and my friends wonder why the graphics while playing and cut scenes has different graphics quality and I remember how we wish that gameplay and cut scenes has the same graphics. I can also remember people saying that gaming is a childs play and gaming is for kids, but now gaming has changed (MGS4 Line lol). I was even obliged to buy an HD TV just to get the best of it. Ever since I bought the unit, I was constantly amazed with its capabilities like power, gameplay and new games that will be here soon like KillZone 2, God of War 3, White Knight Chronicles and the most awaited 3 part RPG Final Fantasy 13, Final Fantasy 13 Versus and Final Fantasy 13 Agito. The plot of the game exist on the same universe with different story, characters and I think location too and they do not affect each other. I'm not a PS fan guy but this is just amazing, just look at the graphics and gameplay. It looks like your watching FF7 Advent Children but your controlling the characters and outcome of the battle. Check the clip below for the FF gameplay and MGS 4 Act 1 intro.

Resu Scroll

I started playing World of Warcraft again and this time I was more into it than before. I even bought another account to roll another toon. I rushed to Data Blitz, Bought my battle Chest pack for more than $50 and after a week reached level 55 that will allow me to roll a Death Knight which need another expansion that took another $50 out of my wallet which is 100% more expensive than online purchase, Actually $25 cause my loving Girlfriend paid the other half as a Christmas present to me lol.

What triggers it? well my good Manager involved me to their new business that he proposed to the shareholders of our company. We Spearhead the development of the website and how it will run. The problem is he left us already and I was left alone in developing the business and thinking ways how to generate traffic on our website and not only that... my promotion was retracted because of documentation problem.... oh well.

Im not in the mood discussing problems cause I had enough and I don't want to think about it for the meantime. All I know is I wanted peace so bad.

Bonechewer is my home server for now. Main toon is Death Knight... Im bashing all mobs in Northrend for all my problems. My toon name? Itos.. hehe thats my gf fave name.

D3

I was hoping that I can make it right. Set things straight again. One problem solved hopefully and I don't have any plan on going back to that path again. I don't know if I can make it back to where I'm supposed to be but I was hoping and that's all I wanted.

Went home and read emails. Rain started and it fell hard when I saw how I was tagged on the address book.

I was not supposed to... I was not like this... and I will never be... like that again...

Day 2

The hurting digs deeper as the hour pass by. I was so worried... when she said the word "Utoin along the way" it hurt me because I know that my word is not important anymore and all I can say is "Pasakayin lang kita". I was so worried and I wanted to ride another FX to follow her but no fx came after that. I went home thinking for hours and fell asleep round 3 am and suddenly woke up 4 am because of sudden feeling that something happened which I don't know. I can't go back to sleep cause I can't sleep anymore.

I kept on staring at the gate. The Dogs are barking every time someone pass by and every time that happen I feel excited and suddenly realized that she will never come back. Stared at my laptop and let it just flow again. I can only talk to my laptop and kept on saying to myself that I can bear this. I know that what I'm hoping for only happen in dreams.

Every minute that pass is a torture to me.. Cried every hour that I remember what just happened. What struck me more and I can't help but cry was when my Mom cried cause of what happened. I can't help myself but just hide and let everything out in my system. I was able to take my rest at 6 pm and woke up 8:30 PM cause I need to work. Mom told me that she was trying to contact her but there was no answer. I'm dead worried again but I don't have any cellphone that I can use to contact her because my phone was missing.

Came to work like a possessed doll. Good thing that my back is on them and I'm just facing the wall and my laptop. No one really knows if I'm working or just wetting my table.

Everything seems so blurry right now. The only thing that is clear is that I want to make things right cause she's everything that I dreamed of.

There are lot of things that bothers me. What if there are things that will happen which I cannot change anymore.. what if's and what if's and there are times that I wish I can just disappear because I can't bear the pain that I'm feeling right now...

Foolishness..

It happened so fast. I know what I want and I know what makes me happy but I messed up big time and I don't know if this can be fix again.. No matter what I say and do I can never make it the same as before. Maybe I will just go ahead and make things right for myself and prove that the mistakes that I've done will be the last.

Sometimes you need to hurt yourself before you will realize. its foolish.

More hurting will come and I know I will die along the way...

I wish I can make things right again.