Recap and problem... Always..

I always try to remember everything that happened on the past days, weeks and months everytime I open this website. Everytime I do, I realize that there's a big difference from before and now and it keeps on changing. My Father is in the US and he is doing good except for the fact that all expenses was left to me, If I was the same guy before I would never be able to cover all of that and still rely on his pocket and wallet. I was promoted many times since I work as a gamer that earns 10,000 a month which is not even enough to buy me coffee at Starbucks. My girlfriend is great except for the things she expected of me. I never thought that work will become an issue in my life. She always complain about my time, my time for her. There are things that I want her to realize but the fact that everything is not understandable and I do know that sometimes there are things that you cannot explain. I actually tried explain it in plain and simple words but still I can't make her understand that sometimes I need to cover my ass to keep what I have right now.

Workaholic. Thats the word I always hear from her eversince I started to work as a Supervisor which is sometimes I work way beyond than my title. I never imagined that I will be tag as one because before I was an addict, game addict to be precise. All I care for is how to beat everyone and how to be strong in a game but now what I care about is my life, my parents, my job, my people and of course my Girlfriend and I think she don't feel that I do. There are times... actually most of the time I forget things which is important for her that sometimes I wish that I could remember. Im having hard time remembering things such as songs, dates, movies and other things that for her is important which makes me a worthless partner. So much work, meetings, deadlines that sometimes I wish that I can implant a memory stick on my head to remember all of that. I can't blame her. If I say that to her probably what she will say is "You can say no, manage your time, you can do things to make it easier, you can make it simpler do it earlier etchetera etchetera". How I wish its simple as that. Probably she will say all of that again if she heard that again. *Sigh*. She keeps on expecting things that I should do that sometimes makes me think to quit my job. Because its like I need to choose between her or my job. She will probably say that she don't mean it that way but the fact is... thats what I feel. I hate to say this but she really don't have a clue about my situation. I do explain it but still she can't understand. How I wish I can make it simpler. This is just sad... too sad for me... and probably this will probably trigger her pessimistic side of her. I try to keep this and keep my cool. but sometimes I just can't handle it anymore that I let it and just accept. I love her but Im only human that sometimes reach its limit and if it keeps on happening this will probably change me permanently.